I deleted a long post I had in draft about 2009. The sum of it was - last year at this time I felt victorious, hopeful, grateful. We had made it through some very difficult times, had much to be grateful for and a whole new year full of opportunities just ahead of us.
This year I feel apprehensive. 2009 was hard. For lots of reasons some of the hardest times of my life occurred this past year.
As I look at the specific trials we faced, everything is much better. Thank God our dear Ezrie has not been diagnosed with anything serious, and continues to make us laugh with her precocious, fun-loving nature. Our sweet-hearted Levi has grown up a lot this year, has made friends at school and seems happier. Jaiden is an absolute joy. (All of the kids frequently tell us they love us and want hugs. Jaiden has heard it so much from his siblings he says "I yuv you mommy!") William is doing tremendously better, for which I am deeply grateful. I got my law degree, still working on the bar. My faith has grown in leaps and bounds as I have been forced to my knees again and again.
While I see the blessings in our lives, I can't help but hold my breath a bit as I ask myself 'what does 2010 hold for our family?' I guess we'll just have to wait and see.
