I am still processing. Funny how failing the first time took about four minutes to really sink in - it was pretty much full fledged despair right from the start.
But I really really really am having a hard time understanding that I PASSED!!!! I keep plugging my numbers into the website, and see my name, and it is crazy!!!
I sent a bunch of texts out when I was still in major major shock. What I would have liked to have said in that text is what I am going to write now:
Thank you thank you thank you thank you! There are so many family members and dear friends (including my fantastic blogging friends!) who have supported me, prayed for me, babysat the kids, helped with meals, checked in on William, listen to me WHINE, and overall encouraged me on this path. This has been such a group effort of faith and love and I feel very very blessed.
This is such a major obstacle to have overcome, and I truly thank God for carrying me through on your prayers.
I was driving home with about 30 minutes until results were released. I was doing some last minute preparing (I really have been in 'bracing myself for impact' mode all week). I thought, "what is going to change in my life if I fail again?" I thought about my husband and children. My parents, siblings and extended family. I thought of my dear friends who are also part of my family. I thought to myself "all of the people I love and care about are still going to be in my life tomorrow no matter what. That is what really matters. This is a TEST I am freaking out about."
But I still freaked out.
And I passed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Many prayers of gratitude have been said tonight. As time passes they are beginning to become a little more coherent.
My legal journey is far from over. But it officially started in 1998 when I was accepted into law school. I deferred for two years to serve a mission, then had the whole living in Australia for five years happen. Crazy to think where life has taken me. It has taken me 12 years, but on Monday it looks like I will officially become an attorney.
Is this for real?????????????????????????????????????????????????????
