I am so so so grateful for my wonderful family - my blood ties, my chosen family, my ward family.
My children have brought me endless comfort (when they aren't irritating!) - gotta love those little guys. I love that they'll give me hugs, cuddles and kisses whenever I ask.
Poor Levi. A few weeks ago, during the mono time, he started to get fed up. He voiced his frustration several times "I'm tired of you having the sleeping sickness!" And now, here I am, again unable to do all the things for the kids that I'd like to do.
But we've had another hugely massive blessing - William truly is feeling better. As always, his health comes and goes, but yesterday, on Thanksgiving Day of 2010, as a family we spent 8 continuous hours together. Eight. 8. Eight. I can tell you it has been years since that has happened, and it was one of the best Thanksgivings I've ever had.
This has been a very different pregnancy. I continue to have complications that create worry. I have never had problems like this in a pregnancy that has continued to full-term, so maybe that explains why I feel so attached to this baby already. I feel fierce love and a desire to protect.
We'll have to see how the next few weeks go. If things are still the same, we will not be traveling to stay with family for Christmas. Somehow the kids are going to have to deal with that, if that is what we have to do. We'll have to look into all the possible options.
It is surreal to look back to last year at this time. I had just found out I failed the CA bar. It was a hard Thanksgiving for so many reasons. This year, we are in a much better place as a family. But we are missing one very important family member (each one is important). I so hope that a year from now we are celebrating Thanksgiving with our full and complete family. Whatever happens, I do know that there is a divine plan that is unfolding. This Plan will happen, whether we are ready or not, whether we like it or not, whether we admit it or not: God is in charge.
I am grateful for a loving, all-knowing Heavenly Father.
