So I guess in the past, Washington State did not release your failing score. That is not the case any longer. Today I was surprised to get my exam responses with my scores in the mail.
I needed 126 point to pass the part I failed. If I had scored between a 122 - 125, I could appeal, and choose several answers to be re-read in the hopes of bumping up my overall score to a pass. I scored 121 points.
There is no way to be happy or content about failing. I can only predict how I would have felt, but if today I had found out that I had failed by a larger margin, I think I would have still been upset, but could have said, "yeah, I knew I wasn't prepared." That's pretty much the conclusion I have come to over the last few days.
But today, I find these points very difficult to deal with. Funny how I thought my first day was so much better than my second day - I scored exactly the same amount of points both days!
Truthfully, for this exam, an hour of study of the right law would have made the difference between failing and passing the exam. There was one question in particular on my second day which covered basic landlord/tenant principles. That very morning I had specifically opted not to review landlord/tenant law, and instead studied law that was not on the exam. I lost at least three points for that decision.
Any one of a number of things could have been different, but they weren't. And the result is that I have to go through this horrible process again, with a baby or toddler. Heartbreaking and overwhelming.
And William finally told me yesterday (Happy Mother's Day to me) that him participating in our baby's blessing or Levi's baptism at the end of the year is not going to happen. Not that I had high hopes in this regard, but I had a faint hope he would feel something that would change his mind. But no.
All in all, this week has been ... hard.
I know that being in the seventh month of a pregnancy that has been difficult and emotional from the first few weeks does not make dealing with all of this any easier.
